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She read it to reporters at a press conference Tuesday, telling them it was part of...\u003c/span\u003e\n\u003cspan class='full-description hide'\u003eOne of the dozens of shooting victims at Orlando's Pulse nightclub wrote a poem about her survival as she lay recovering in the hospital Monday night.  She read it to reporters at a press conference Tuesday, telling them it was part of her healing process.\"The guilt of feeling alive is heavy,\" Patience Carter said.\"I never thought in a million years that this could happen. I never thought in a million years that my eyes could witness something so tragic, looking at the souls leaving the bodies of individuals,\" she continued. \"Looking at the blood and debris covered on everyone's faces, looking at the gunman's feet under the stall as he paces.\"She said she and her friends were visiting Orlando from Philadelphia for the first time, and one of her friends didn't make it.  She said and her friends were having the time of their lives when the gunfire broke out around 2am Sunday morning. She said she was in one of the nightclub's bathrooms for hours, suffering a gunshot wound to the leg. She said at one point the gunman also came into the bathroom and called 911.  One of the dozens of shooting victims at Orlando's Pulse nightclub wrote a poem about her survival as she lay recovering in the hospital Monday night.  She read it to reporters at a press conference Tuesday, telling them it was part of her healing process.\"The guilt of feeling alive is heavy,\" Patience Carter said.\"I never thought in a million years that this could happen. I never thought in a million years that my eyes could witness something so tragic, looking at the souls leaving the bodies of individuals,\" she continued. \"Looking at the blood and debris covered on everyone's faces, looking at the gunman's feet under the stall as he paces.\"She said she and her friends were visiting Orlando from Philadelphia for the first time, and one of her friends didn't make it.  She said and her friends were having the time of their lives when the gunfire broke out around 2am Sunday morning. She said she was in one of the nightclub's bathrooms for hours, suffering a gunshot wound to the leg. She said at one point the gunman also came into the bathroom and called 911.  Orlando, Florida - 14 June 20141. Patience Carter being wheeled into news conference2. SOUNDBITE (English) Patience Carter/Shooting Victim\"The guilt of feeling alive is heavy...wanting to smile about surviving, but not sure if the people around you are ready. As the world mourns the victims killed...and viciously slain, I feel guilty about screaming about my legs in pain because I could feel nothing...because the other 49 who weren't so lucky to feel this pain of mine. I never thought in a million years that this could happen. I never thought in a million years that my eyes could witness something so tragic...looking at the souls leaving the bodies of individuals....looking at the killer's machine through my right periphery...looking at the blood and debris covered on everyone's faces....looking at the gunman's feet under the stall as he paces....The guilt of feeling lucky to be alive is heavy....It's like the weight of the ocean's walls crushing uncontrolled by levies...it's like being drug through the grass with a shattered leg...and being thrown on the back of a Chevy...it's like being rushed to the hospital and told you're going to make it...when you laid beside individuals whose lives were brutally taken. The guilt of being alive is heavy.\"3. 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